This is a true story of unimaginable pain I had to face throughout my life, That I had covered up with mask my whole life until now. Through my battles of illness fear of death gave me no option other than dying or to find Jesus Christ, and I turned my life and will over to his care. I share traumas that he has given me the ability to forgive others and myself. My story talks about how I was able to overcome trauma and face them head on. This is a story that was mine until I came to Christ and he gave me the courage when faced with death to be brave, and prove to Him that I had the courage and faith to trust to start living for only him. He asked me on my deathbed, "Are you done living for humanity, and their opinions, risk losing them all, and show the world that through Me all things are possible?" I found a courage I never had before. I never thought there would come a day where I would be capable of such honesty, and I would not have been able to break the chains of the enemies bondage without Him. I hope my story can help one person and that one person may help many more. I don't have to be like the person next to me, and that He made me the way He wanted me. That I could be happy with the new creation He created and quit comparing my worth to others. He showed me that we all have a job here on earth and that each one is as important as mine. He will love me the same as if I served him my whole life or just today as long as I came to Him, and found my purpose. I ended this book, and after I closed this book I had many more events that happened that were painful beyond belief. I am here to say that through Him we can walk through fire unscathed. He is the love of my life, and I am his beloved.