Just many of the things I have went through emotionally (mostly) & physically since I was age 14 til now being 23. It's all mixed up and out of order. Things that pour straight from my mind, heart, & soul.. Being brutally honest. The loving & leaving. Heartaches. Feelings of suicide. Mistakes. Addictions. My wonderful children. My brothers. Parents. The good, the bad. & Happiness... and if you read enough, you will know true happiness has been rare for me.