Sylvain Routhier was a remarkably successful police sergeant with a struggle that would uproot everything.

He was dedicated to his career with the Ontario Provincial Police, and active in his community. Affectionately known as "Roots", he was adored by friends and family, yet no one knew the weight he silently began to carry: PTSD and a mental illness were gripping his thoughts and overtaking his life, which ended sadly, in the summer of 2018.

This is Sylvain's story, told by his wife Sarah. It's an honest and raw account of their love, their struggle, and the tragedy their family lived through.

Discover the warning signs Sarah wishes she would have known as a police wife, how she has overcome adversity, and how Sylvain's death has become a catalyst for change for first responders and their organizations.