An illustrated intimate and honest life review of artist Diane Goldie, mother and grandmother that began when her world fell apart after losing her eldest daughter to suicide.

This tragic event exploded her world as she knew it and opened up a brand new way of looking at life, love, grief and everything through the lens of neurodivergence. Trying to find out the reason her daughter took her own life led her to discoveries about herself and her family that she hadn't anticipated. A secret mission is revealed between her and her deceased daughter, with synchronicities and signposts lighting up the way ahead. What started off as a search for "Why?" ultimately turned into a deep knowing. This memoir became a part of the mission, a way of reaching out to others like her and planting many seeds of hope and healing.It includes a frank exploration of the consequences of child sexual abuse, its link with neurodivergence and what it takes to get to a place of recovery. Maybe we are not broken, maybe we are just different?